So I'm gonna add quite a few games here. The past
WEEK has been absolutely atrocious to me and I genuinely can't put my finger on why. I went from Ascendant I to Phantom V and probably will continue to skydive, which is beyond frustrating for me.
I'm doing everything I can to do my best, but 99,9% of the time it just is not impactful and either the games are lost at the draft or something else happens. I'll break it down below, but these are the losses I've had within the past week:
| 46328515 | 46330839 | 46332893 | 46396404 | 46396404 | 46401727 | 46404510 | 46459758 |
| 46461873 | 46463575 | 46468110 | 46470403 | 46478112 | 46526993 | 46588225 | 46588611 |
| 46590457 | 46591883 | 46594290 | 46595574 | 46597289 | 46703658 | 46704961 | 46706062 |
| 46706062 | 46708940 | 46712635 | 46714885 | 46716829 | | | |
Out of 48 games (around ~36 games if we discount the times I played with a premade), I've had
29 losses.
That's around a 20%-39% winrate. I usually have a winrate around 50% or 55%, with my lifetime win-rate around 52%. The only few wins I've had this week that are legitimate and not due to finding people to play with are a LOT smaller than that. Here's my takeaway from that:
- The games are absolutely HORRENDOUS quality. Either you get stomped in 20 minutes, or you just have a slogfest where the enemy team gets a 60-80k soul lead on you before they dare try to to win. There's maybe a handful of games that genuinely felt like a victory was possible and was deserved, and it highly depends on if you have a competent "main dps" (such as Haze, Infernus, Wraith, Mina, Mirage). And especially yesterday, where I played 10 games and won only 1, majority of my games I played were just lost at draft where they (for example) had Mo & Krill, Dynamo, Kelvin, Infernus, Haze and Pagie, and we had maybe Bebop and Wraith - or better yet, one game where we had
no DPS when they had all the heroes which could win the game to them who even played their role perfectly. There's just so much you can do as a "non-meta" hero (putting it in " as every hero can be meta if played right) and you can only do so much when you've lost already at draft with heroes that have no synergy.
- People outright being toxic, abusive, trolling, harassing, sexist or throwing. I cannot stress how many damn games I've had where people just go "gg go next" and goes to sit AFK in spawn, AFK in jungle, AFK in whatever and refuses to cooperate with the rest of the team and admits it - or even leaves when they're taking our patron, not contesting it, which is so unbelieveably demoralizing and disrespectful. In TWO of my games I got a Russian dude who kept hurling insults at me both in Russian and English, calling me a whore and saying he'll throw the game because he doesn't like "that whore" and how I need to learn the game, yelling to the enemy team to report me simply for being a woman etc etc. I cannot STRESS how fucking demoralizing this is and how angry I feel that even if I reported them and was trying to avoid getting queued up with them, I
STILL ended up in the same team with them where they continued their harassment and sexist treatment which is not something I want to experience when I've reported and blocked them. I've had victories I never thought was possible, but the fact I don't even get a chance
have an unlikely victory is beyond frustrating.
- The games had had a MASSIVE uptick where I suspected multiple people of being cheaters. I actually confirmed even this with multiple of my games, which I also reported here, which is unconcieveable in a playtest. I know Yoshi put out the statement on the Discord about this and how they're looking into making the cheating detection more aggressive so props to you for that, but I still want to highlight this as a huge factor in why my games feel absolutely horrible.
- Lack of comunication. I have ticked the box I prefer a bit more competitive games, but in so many games I'm the only one using comms and there's nobody else even pinging anything else. It's frustrating when what are you supposed to do when nobody listens? Nobody communicates in a game heavily reliant on communicating?
- People who simply do not feel like they belong at this level. Sometimes I genuinely meet people who seem so lost and I genuinely don't know how they're playing on the same ranks. I'm talking people who actually never use their ability, only go afk in jungle, misses waves prio, has odd buying order, doesn't understand how to engage in teamfights and ends up 0-8-0. Sometimes that's me when my lane-mate doesn't communicate or is afraid of their own shadow - and that's why I'm working on improving myself so I could be able to win - but I genuinely don't understand how I'm having people going 0-12-0 on my team while the enemy Mina drops 20 kills. Is it smurfs? Is it cheating? Is it just someone having a good day? Who knows, but it's beyond frustrating being stomped by a main DPS that carries so hard when your own team doesn't perform at all to the same standard. I do hold myself also to this word, sometimes I play like shit, but I also feel like my overall performance is rather consistent.
- With the above factors in mind, the games just feel utterly demoralizing. There's just nothing you can do when one or more factors above are present. It just feels like you're slowly going insane: I've had multiple days where I'm on a losing spree of 9, and I take a break to the next day just to continue the losing streak. I don't know if the "Losers queue" is real or if there's something else at play. But it just doesn't feel possible to climb or maintain the rank with the heroes one wants to play as long as you're playing solo. The game heavily favours people who plays Main DPS heroes or "carry" heroes and if you don't get those on your team it's GG. Or if you do, you have to hope they're actually good and not struggling.
Here's the kicker, why it bothers me. The lower lobbies I get put in, the more "stompy" the games feels for me. The lower lobbies I am in, the lower rank I get put in, the more it just genuinely seems like I'm outperforming most people on my own team and enemy team - not by a lot, but still enough that it makes a larger impact. And then it feels like "involuntary smurfing", where I'm basically causing chaos in the lobbies I'm not supposed to be in. Don't get me wrong, I'm not Deathy so I wouldn't be able to stomp everyone; but it's enough that I know I'm not belonging in this rank and seeing that I perform quite average in the Ascendant rank, I'm suspecting my current skill is somewhere around there and not lower.
So in conclusion... Did I piss of a Valve god? Did I piss someone off at the development team to get a horrendous experience like this? I can't say, but I genuinely feel so upset and demotivated about this. It's genuinely frustrating and I can't even stress how demoralizing it is to have a game that's lost at draft, with people who are throwing, with people who are toxic sexist asshats and just having the enemy team steamroll you. No matter what you do, your actions have no impact on the overall things, and unless you play a carry you're too much at the mercy of your team.
Whatever the case is, sorry for the longer message and what not - I'm genuinely beyond frustrated when the main game I play have this atrocious of a matchmaking at this moment. Nobody wants to play a game where they win only 20% (or 39% of the games) they play due to factors outside their own realm. Whoever I pissed off at the development team, I apologize. And I hope I'll be put in better queues so I can at least get my win-rate of 50% back where games aren't so one-sided or horrible. Thanks.
